winds of change

Owh…gawd..12th of march…it has been 2 months and 25 days since the last day of SPM..the examination that took me almost 2 years to prepare for and only 2 weeks to complete. In another 11 days I would know if all the effort, hardwork and stress that I put in to face SPM was enough or not. Until that day, all that is in me now is mixed emotions and all the “what if’s”. People say there is no point worrying because you’ve done your best and even if you worry, nothing would change. I agree with this statement but can you ever control your feelings? Would the results bring much difference to your future? If you get good results then you are rewarded with a scholarship but if not then would your future be crushed right in front of you? As for me, I don’t think so. SPM is only a minor exam that makes you realize what your true passion is and talent. Basically, if you know alphabets and numbers spiced up with some fun sacrifice and time, then you are equipped to prepare for SPM. The thing that scares the hell out of us is disappointment. There are a gazillion of students out there that get 10 A1’s so mum’s and dad’s expect that from us which just adds the burden on our shoulders though they don’t make it known to us. It doesn’t really matter if other people get disappointed because sooner or later they would get over it but what if we disappoint ourselves? Would we loose the confidence that we had or would it be a slap in the face that would soon mean nothing?
As for me, I choose to leave it all to God and hope for the best. Good Luck!