waiting and wanting

There is always a target in life that can change a person for better or for worse.
This target is able to play with your desire and test the strength you have with-in yourself. Though sometimes the desire of wanting it is so strong but when you finally get it, amazingly you don’t want it anymore. Does this happen because your sick and tired or waiting or your expectation were just too high. You suddenly feel that something has tourniquet you so now your left to decide between take it or leave it. Mixed emotions fall upon you like rainfall. Suddenly you feel that you’ve lost everything you had and the control you have in your own life. All litten lights around suddenly burn out and your left in darkness. You look around you and see nobody in sight that could help you. Feel like you’ve been pulled six feet under so deep that you don’t feel the ground you stand upon. You regret everything you’ve done and said. So what do you do now?? cry until your out of tears or just take a deep breath and take control of your life. Blood still flows with-in you but your soul is missing.